au revoir, Octobre

October, the month of disaster for Indonesia.
Tsunami, earthquake, flood, volcano eruption, just what more will happen??
why did all these happen to Indonesia? is this karma?
is God angry with Indonesia? do Indonesian have a lot of sins?
if so, we, Indonesian, really beg for forgiveness.
hope with the end of october, the disaster will end too.
and tomorrow, will be the time for rebuild :)

anyway, just watched Legend of the fist: the return of Chen Zhen, the main characters are Donnie Yan and Su Qi.
the story is almost like ipman, with japanese as the villain and donnie yan as the hero.
but it's still good to watch, with all the action and kungfu :)
from this movie, you can see how cruel is japanese back then in world war 2
China really likes to make movies of how cruel japanese are. i wonder how are the japanese's feeling when they watch the movies. hahaha.
but that is not fiction tho, it's real. japanese are that cruel.
my mom told me that older chinese are still hate japanese to the bones, and i can see it in my chinese teacher who i think is about 40 to 50 years old.
he said japanese are so evil. 100 times more evil than white people.
he said if the enemies have surrendered, white people won't kill them, and they didn't kill people without reason like japs did. the worse is japs tortured people before killed them and they didn't care if you surrender or not.
i think that's the cruelest part, i mean, everybody will die, i know,
but torture before kill, i reckon, is so inhumanity. and those who can still laugh seeing other people howl in pain are worse than beasts.
hm? why am i suddenly so inflamed? -.-
but i believe not all japs are like that tho, and it's different now with era ago.
one of my good friends now is japanese too and she is pretty good. so it's just unfair to judge people by other people's sins just because they're from same country or race.
well, time to off to bed. see you tomorrow november :)
ah, here's the trailer of the return of Chen Zhen.
and one last thing, quote of the day taken from Chen Zhen:
people will die anyway, but for the least they have to die with dignity

here to stay

have u realised the song i added to my blog? :D
it's bleach theme song! told u i'm so into bleach lately hihii
i love the melody. sadness and loneliness in the beginning, but i feel hope at last, imagining somebody's hand is held out for me to reach. so i can get out from the loneliness :)
my imagination is so lame i know hahaha.. i suppose to stand and get out of it alone! like what an aquarius supposed to do, being independent! >:D
but i think i am a lot more independent and mature than i was when i was still in school.
remembering myself when i was in primary and junior high school really make me shake my head hahaha
i was so childish, selfish, spoiled, bad, and annoying -.-
for instance, when i was in year 8th or 9th of high school, i liked to watch anime like mirumo de pon and inuyasha that's on tv at 4pm to 5pm. but you know, indonesia often makes houses off electricity or blackout :/ so i remember that time, the channel said that day was the last episode of inuyasha, and guess what, that day, that hour, blackout! i was so pissed that time!
so i bothered my parents badly but forgot what really happened already. what i remember is i cried!
can you believe it?? just because of inuyasha i cried! hahaha.. XD
i can't believe myself either. just how childish i was back there -.-'
and i don't know how my mom and dad can be so patient facing all my childish and selfishness. if i have a kid like myself, i'll lose patient and just ignore her, or even scold her hahaha XD i hate childish kid. hm? that sentence is weird, kids are supposed to be childish.
it's like when my sisters said that i'm so childish and my mom said 'of course she is childish, she is a child' hahahaha..
what a pointless things to write -.-'
i'm just getting bored. have finished watching bleach :(
aahh.. holiday is gonna over soon! so lazy to go back to assignments and tests.
and still haven't decided what should i major in yet :(
now, lenka's the show is the best to illustrate my life.

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go, can't do it alone
I've tried and I don't know why
I'm just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared but I don't show it
I can't figure it out, it's bringing me down

♥

good songs make my day :)

i'm so into these songs lately:
1. raise your glass by pink. this's her newest single and it rocks! always heart pink ♥
2. the only exception by paramore. totally fall in love with this song! the lyric is so beautiful, a girl who has lost hope and trust for love, finally find her only exception :) just how sweet that is.. it's like finally find a glimpse of light in never ending misery.. wondering when will i find my exception..
3. sandford in the club by mister hopper. this song is so fun, the rhythm is so catchy. like it ♥ i know this song from unhearit.com. it's really interesting website. just open it and you'll like it!

those're the songs that make my day hehee keep repeating them :D

anyway, i really salute this lady. she really gets gut!cool rite? two thumbs up for her!

i'll never have the guts to have hairstyle like this! i'm too old-fashioned, and i can't imagine how my grandma, mom and dad will react if they see me with this hairstyle hahahaha
i think they will kick me out of house XD

well, need to sleep now. need to get rid of my annoying eyebags hehee
last but not least, this is my quote of the day:

'as time goes by, people will forget what you said and what you did to them. but they will never forget the feeling you made them felt'

nighty night people! aware more of people's feeling okay? :)

fact ;)

When a diplomat says yes, he means ‘perhaps’;

When he says perhaps, he means ‘no’;

When he says no, he is not a diplomat.

When a lady says no, she means ‘perhaps’;

When she says perhaps, she means ‘yes’;

When she says yes, she is not a lady.

Voltaire (Quoted, in Spanish, in Escandell 1993.)

encouragement ♥

Girls are like
apples on trees. The best
ones are at the top of the tree.
The boys don't want to reach for
the good ones because they are afraid
of falling and getting hurt. Instead, they
just get the rotten apples from the ground
that aren't as good, but easy. So the apples
at the top think something is wrong with
them, when in reality, they're amazing.
They just have to wait for the right
boy to come along, the one
who's brave enough
to climb
all the way
to the top
of the tree.

left, right or go straight?

i'm so confuse now. thinking what should i major in really make me sick.
when people ask "what do u want to be when you finish school?" i really hope i can answer with my 10-years-old's answer "i haven't figured it out. it's still in God's hand"
but i can't answer people with that kind of answer anymore, can i?
i'm 18th, in college, will go to uni next year, and have to decide what majors i have to take before wednesday the 13th. why? simply because i need to enrol the elective subject that relates to what i wanna major in next year in uni.
so the problem is i really don't know what i want!
since the beginning i chose commerce also because i don't know what to do, i'm so hopeless!
it's like choosing a way that i don't know where it will lead me to, and don't know which way is the right one. damn.
somehow i wish i'll just get married and become housewife. hahaha.
like anybody wants me to become his wife =.='
and actually i'm too stubborn, too independent to rely on men
anyway, love, relationship, really aren't type of things i wanna think about right now, so stop talking about married already :p

i'm so busy lately, busy watching bleach anime XD
i like it. it's a perfect thing to do to kill time :)
ah, and i just had a haircut. and i regret to have cut my hair T.T
because i look so stupid and ugly now! my hair is supposed to look like katy perry! but it turns out not even slightly look like her! and the hairdresser said that's because my hair is too straight and bla bla bla! whatta bullshit! X(
well, actually i know it won't turn exactly like katy perry though. since katy perry's hair was cut by top hairdresser in hollywood and mine was cut by a i-don't-even-know-her-name hairdresser and only cost me 25 bucks -.-
so yeah, i have to stop complain now :/
hoamm.. so sleepy =.=
it's almost two already?? no wonder!
okay then, need to sleep now. bonsoir people :)
avoir un doux reve ♥

ah, here some pics of my hair before cut-i wish to have-and after cut



T.T

Ola October ♥

time sure goes fast, october has stepped in to replace september
hopefully, february will come faster :)
and hopefully october can be better since my september was not really nice :(
many things change, many lies revealed, tears were drawn, heart hurts
but i'm sure this will really be the end, 30th page has been torn and
here comes the 1st page, the beginning of new chapter :)
and in this new chapter of my heart, my life, here are the top 3 priority:
1. family
2. friends
3. study

wondering where is love? i think it's at the fourth place, or maybe fifth
i don't know, don't wanna think about it

anyway, yesterday was my last day exam, don't think i did well though :(
but the point is i'm in holidayyy!! yaayyy!! :D
i feel so free after the exam finished, if i'm a bird i think i have flown up to the blue sky, carefreely :)
i know this holiday gonna be boring, but it's better than stressing about assignments right?

and i have song to share with u guys :D
this is my favorite song at the moment ♥
my music by kim yeo hee, she is know as the 'apple girl' because her youtube videos always have iphone in it. i love her high and strong voice so much!
she is just like alicia keys, but korean version XD
and she is so pretty! good looking and talented, can't be better :)
okay then, off now, gonna have some lunch, so hungry because i skip the breakfast
have a great weekend guys! enjoy the video :)