counting days

how do you feel if your dream almost comes true, just few steps more, but the driver of your dream is suddenly crashed?
and the ones who crashed it are those the most important ones in your life?
confuse of what i'm talking about? haha
it's just i watched dreams link -a chinese drama-on tv this morning, the story is about triangle love of two sisters and a guy. the guy is the older sister's fiance and the older sister is a professional dancer that's on the days of her career peak. the older sister is focusing on her career so much that sometime she ignored the guy. so day by day, the guy who has closed to both sisters since childhood was closer to younger sister and the younger sister has fell in love to the guy since the beginning and hence, the guy falls to her too.
if the story ends like that, i won't pity the older sister. because it's her own fault.
however, when the guy decided to tell her fiance about the relationship of he and her sister, he's so nervous and they're in a car, so because he's so dumb and nervous, accident happened.
their car's hit by a truck. older sister lost one of her leg.
her dream, her career, gone in a flash. feeling guilty, the guy proposed to her and they got married. eitt, but the story hasn't ended yet.
the guy still loves younger sister even he has got married and the younger sister-so lucky-is loved by a rich man, so younger sister got married and moved to paris.
as i said before, the guy still loves younger sister. and when the older sister found out about the affair of her husband and her sister, which is the main root of her accident, can you imagine how hurt she is? being betrayed like that. loses her precious dream, loses her love, loses trust, loses pride.
and you know what i hate? i hate when the older sister suffers to death, the younger sister, who can be said one of the main cause of her suffer, living happy life in big villa in paris, with handsome rich guy, be the model of new perfume, etc.
well, maybe she's not really happy or whatever.. but the point is how can it be so unfair??
and i don't like the one who played the younger sister in the drama. her acting is so.. i don't know, i don't like it. i think all she did in the acting is cry cry cry and cry.
she cried even more than her older sister-i think-who suffered much more than her.

well, it's a good drama even a lil' bit boring in the middle but still worth to watch :)
my eyes are so heavy already. need to sleep now.
night world :)