here to stay

have u realised the song i added to my blog? :D
it's bleach theme song! told u i'm so into bleach lately hihii
i love the melody. sadness and loneliness in the beginning, but i feel hope at last, imagining somebody's hand is held out for me to reach. so i can get out from the loneliness :)
my imagination is so lame i know hahaha.. i suppose to stand and get out of it alone! like what an aquarius supposed to do, being independent! >:D
but i think i am a lot more independent and mature than i was when i was still in school.
remembering myself when i was in primary and junior high school really make me shake my head hahaha
i was so childish, selfish, spoiled, bad, and annoying -.-
for instance, when i was in year 8th or 9th of high school, i liked to watch anime like mirumo de pon and inuyasha that's on tv at 4pm to 5pm. but you know, indonesia often makes houses off electricity or blackout :/ so i remember that time, the channel said that day was the last episode of inuyasha, and guess what, that day, that hour, blackout! i was so pissed that time!
so i bothered my parents badly but forgot what really happened already. what i remember is i cried!
can you believe it?? just because of inuyasha i cried! hahaha.. XD
i can't believe myself either. just how childish i was back there -.-'
and i don't know how my mom and dad can be so patient facing all my childish and selfishness. if i have a kid like myself, i'll lose patient and just ignore her, or even scold her hahaha XD i hate childish kid. hm? that sentence is weird, kids are supposed to be childish.
it's like when my sisters said that i'm so childish and my mom said 'of course she is childish, she is a child' hahahaha..
what a pointless things to write -.-'
i'm just getting bored. have finished watching bleach :(
aahh.. holiday is gonna over soon! so lazy to go back to assignments and tests.
and still haven't decided what should i major in yet :(
now, lenka's the show is the best to illustrate my life.

I'm just a little bit caught in the middle
Life is a maze and love is a riddle
I don't know where to go, can't do it alone
I've tried and I don't know why
I'm just a little girl lost in the moment
I'm so scared but I don't show it
I can't figure it out, it's bringing me down

♥